So I decided enough is enough.
Things need to change.
I don't want to accept myself anymore as I am - I reject myself as I am.
I am going to start eating better and exercising more. This is silly.
I'm going to Weight Watchers tomorrow (I think).
I went to the grocery store and bought some good healthy food.
A baby step in the right direction.
And I am starving.
I haven't even changed any habits yet and I already feel so deprived, physically and emotionally.
Maybe I don't need WW or a gym or a trainer - maybe I need a shrink.
Because that is wrong and it sucks.